For every beginning there is an end.

Memory.


it's a weird game.

i'm lonely without skin.

no end to begin and only

your mind to hide in.

i nudge life.

like an unborn child. a dream

inside but now i live behind your eyes.

i'm uninvited. and i'm only

a memory that comes through.



i'm living in your dreams.

i'm where you cannot be.

i'm way out of your reach.



i'm living in your dreams.

i'm where you cannot see.

is it you or is it me?



i can't protect what you can't forget.

but now i live behind your eyes.

you recognize me as only a memory

that comes through.



i'm living in your dreams.

i'm where you cannot go.

beyond everything you know.

i'm living in your dreams.

you won't find me anywhere.

i've vanished in the air.

Delerium - Myth.

Revelations.

I know you want me

But caution inspires

Your tamed indifference

Won't challenge me

Could it, could it be

Love's what you deny me?

This spoiled seduction

Intoxicates thee,

So balanced on my halo

You long secretly

Could it, could it be

Love's what you deny me?

Don't deny yourself

'Cause I know what you want

You can't deny me

We'll be together

So try to run, love

But you won't get away

Could it, could it be

Love's what you deny me?

Delerium - Heaven's Earth.

Rejuvenated.

It's Sunday afternoon and I just pulled myself out of bed. It's raining outside, and I believe that it's been raining the whole morning up till now. It's good to finally get some proper rest, after all the running around back and forth between Ipoh and Penang within the past 3 days. I even missed the Turkey - South Korea, as I was on my way back from Ipoh last night. My grandma's operation was a success, but she's still gonna be kept in the CCU to stabilize her heart. She was rather happy to see Eric yesterday when we went down to see her. Even though she couldn't speak due to the tubes, you could see the fire back in her eyes when we mentioned we'll take her shopping in Penang when she's discharged. I was so worried about her the day before. Now I'm sure everything's gonna be alright.

I'd like to thank everyone who's been helping me keep my spirits and hopes up in the past few days. I had a breakdown on Friday when the last bus available to Penang clashed with the visiting hours. I ended up taking a bus to Butterworth just so I could spend a little more time with her. At least I have no regrets whatsoever.

But I guess there were other factors contributing to my breakdown. Amazing how things tend to go wrong all at the same time. I guess I made the mistake of sticking my head out of my shell again, only to have it chopped off, again. I think I'll stay in my shell and stick to my computer games. At least that way I won't have my emotions played around like some amusement park ride. The risks for football betting is a better option compared to the games of the heart that people play. At least you just lose money, which is something I don't seem to value much anyway. Ah I digress. Time to go get myself some bets with the German supporters. Brazil is gonna take it tonight, no two ways about it. And no, I'm not gonna stake my job on it. *smirk*